Wednesday, June 11, 2008

Putting it out there.

I guess it's time to post it. I am usually right on top of sending out my cards, and my gifts to my sistah's and any other scrapping fun I have going on. Life has gotten a little crazy, so I thought I would vent. It has been just over a month now that my husband and I have seperated. My heart is broken. I thought this would be a good thing, giving us some time apart. He takes the boys one week and then it is my turn.

For those who don't know, David and I have known each other since the 7th grade. Only away from each other 7 of those many, many years before finally getting married about 8 years ago. I don't know what has gone wrong. The seperation was mutual. No big fight. We communicate well when it comes to the boys. But, something is missing between the two of us. I don't know if we are just both too stuborn to say anything or what. We are doing marriage counceling. I walked out of our last session. I just felt like it was talking us into circles and not being productive at all. I should have stayed. I want us to get excited about each other again. Did we get too comfortable? Only time will tell. Only one friend and my family knows about our seperation. That one friend works with me, where nobody else knows. I like keeping it that way. I am hoping to one day to just pick up where we left off, adding insight and happiness. I just needed to vent. To write it all out...says my therapist. Where is Dr. Phil when you need him?

After this last week and a half of severe depresssion, I am on some meds :-) and have started to dig my way out of my slump. I have caught up on my homework, and now ready to start sending out happy thoughts that should have been sent some time ago. I think that was the ticket, when I stopped sending out happy thoughts....I lost mine. SO GET READY FOR HAPPY MAIL!!!!

Thanks for letting me vent, this really did seem to help.

BIG HUGS!!!!!

Carrie

2 comments:

Kimmie0270 said...

Carrie... {{{HUGZ}}}
I'm here for ya if you wanna talk sistah!

Christi said...

Oh sweetie I wish you would've told me! My sister and her husband separated about a month and a half ago and they are going through the exact same thing. They've been together since my sister was 13 and he was 15. They pretty much grew up together and were even great after they got married but after they had their two boys things just started going downhill. He doesn't even want to take the kids. It is all on my sister and I am the first person that she runs to. I am here if you need a shoulder to cry on. Trust me, I can handle it and give you unbiased opinions. :) Big {{{HUGS}}} sweetie...I am here for you.